Ok today shall be a short post cus im pree-dee tired.Haha.
Today was a R-U-B-B-I-S-H-Y day cus 3 of us @ Quest were just rubbishing almost during all of our breaks.
Ok short post cus im gonna sleep and watch WC later.
If Portugal wins i'll be ha-pee cus i dont like France[they made me lose 50 bucks when i was in P6 cus i was rooting for Brasil] French Buggers. But Italy vs Portugal is no kick. anwz im totally almost neutral now.Just hope that I wake up in time @ 3am and b @ the MRT by 730am so no one can push balme on me.muahahah.
If u've noticed i sound totally off logic cus im ready to zonk liao.
Gd night sleep tight dont let the bed buggies bite!

Quote of the day:It's really a wonder that I haven't dropped all my ideals, because they seem so absurd and impossible to carry out. Yet I keep them, because in spite of everything I still believe that people are really good at heart. ~Anne Frank

Hehe today's pee-thee-see was at Queenstown Sec.After returning to all-familiar West Coast,went for a nice breezy cycle before plonking my butt in front of the computer.Always enjoyed cycling and joggin,be it alone or with a companion.Its just quiet reflection or talking utter rubbish and torturing each other with lameness along the way.Guess Im really fortunate to have great friends who're just willing to rubbish around with me.
Hmm received a comment today which is not very surprising.Perhaps 2 i guess.Comment A: I look serious :) Comment B: I dont look sporty. Hehe i guess its just stereotypiong la..cus im quite fair and I do take moderate time to warm up to people[perhaps i evaluate tooo MuCh] According to my MBTI, I am I/E N T J.Ok this sounds totally irrelevant here.
Was actually quite apprehensive abt today la...initially.First and foremost is I guess I dont know JiaChuan & Kenneth very well(they were the 2 guys posted to Quest with me..to tolerate my nonsense muahaha)Plus cus they were both guys, I was afraid of like convo constipation..esp all guys talk army now and im not very good with the opposits gender to begin with.But surprisingly everyth turned out well.I did enjoy myself a fair bit and I find it really amusing to see both of them behaving so gentlemanly :) Haha to all RJ girls I must say we are really a deprived lot.Cus RJ guys in general take our presence for granted..seriously.Way to go,Rj boys!
Oh wells jus kidding.No offence dudes!Well reflecting abit on today's visit to Quest.Its a totally different atmosphere.It really made me feel that Im very privileged to be wher I am today, and it had spurred my ideals on.It was an opportunity to see pple at the other spectrum,& I really look forward to speaking to those kids & finding out more abt their concerns.For me,I always believed that life is all about passion.But today,chatting with the teachers of Quest made me realize that passion is not tt easy to come by.
One glaring issue raised today was abt un-motivated learners.Read abt an article the other day talking abt the 'winner-picking' syndrome of Singapore and S'poreans being conventionalists(is there such a word?hehe)I guess given circumstances as such,many S'poreans tend to be trapped in this little framework,just to play safe.So how great can ur passion be when u take the safe path?But frankly speaking,many students frm Quest also face bread & butter issues which normal pple like you & I can never imagine.Hence given such harsh conditions,emotional & financial excesses to shoulder,how motivated can a normal angsty 16 yr-old be?Guess its like a double-edged sword.Its either that one is a warrior who never says die,or that one gives up totally as it would be the same anyway.
I guess the greatest loophole in mass education(almost everywhere) is that it doesnt exactly help individuals search for their passion.Yes,there're limited resources, lack of teachers & yada...that is sth no one can ever argue abt.Some say its the individual's responsibility to find their own direction.But I really wonder if mass education transforms pple into conventionalists or conformists.Taking a very hypothetical situtation.Let's say Normal Academic Student A is really good in IT.But the IT industry is dying..almost dead.He's not so good @science but he knows well that the biomedical sector is booming.He faces a bread & butter issue at home & he knows that he shld bring home the bacon once he graduates. So is it passion or pragmatism?Given dire conditions,I believe the latter will be a wiser choice.
I know that my arguments has many fallacies and pple can shoot me for this.But at this very short time I have in front of the comp,I cant exactly put my words into solid-ly meaningful thoughts.But in summary tt's all I can get out of my whirl of thoughts.Yeah I wanna help these kids. Going for dinner now!~

Quote of the Day: Don't try to conform life to you, let life shape you and take you through all the rough times. In the end, you will be much wiser and a more respectable person because of it.

TodaY wAs fUn @ sHaTeC!Guess both the trainers Mrs S0on & mR TeOw are very nice pple.Haha at least etiquette classes are not that stereotypically BoRinG.I aCtuALLy enjoyed myself and it goes to say alot. P.S. Im a really fidgety person.
Today's session kinda brought me to realize how un-graceful I usually am.But sErIouSly being polite and eating prettily is not eAsy aT aLL.bIte-siZed pieces,silent stirring,silent drinking,discrete talking,chewing prettily,smiling while eating and remembering which forks and spoons are for which stuff.My gO0DnEss.s0mEhoW i feel glad to be an Asian.Dont have to go all boogy abt this stuff.
aS usual did a fairshare of pple observing today.[guess pple will be quite freaked out when they realize that i am observing and interpreting their actions all time long]Learnt quite abit but shldnt pen them down cus anyth sounding vaguely like anyone mayb likely to give me trouble.fRaNkly sPeAking I have eNough trOuble so no thank you.
the gist is some people in this world just help pple silently,do stuff for others without expecting any form of reciprocation.Sometimes I really admire such people,and I guess the higher powers of above will give more to such selfless people.But of course there are people on the other end of the spectrum.Guess im pretty much in the middle,slightly toward the better end.Perhaps I must learn to be more giving,cus I find such pple endearing n really sweet.
Lunch today was so-so.Somehow felt that lunch during RG times at SHATEC was kinda better.-shrugs- the grass is always greener on the other side?dont know.I like the salmon appetiser and soup but the chicken and cake wasnt exactly to my liking.And cus pple at my table were all females, we obviously(without needing any questioning) did not finsh our food.Kept saying to myself,"Think of the children in Africa."But somehow i just couldnt bring myself to empty the plate.Perhaps the soup was too thick, or perhaps i was too caught up with being a lady.
On a sidenote, I thought it'd be really great if they taught us how to walk.Yeah trust me its a forgotten art.Dont you think we, in general, walk like orangutans these days?and for ladies how to walk properly and demurely in court shoes?I also want wine tasting.haha cant differentiate btwn the different spirits.
Oh well @Co0kInG, my pard-nah was Hui Zhen.She's a really fun & nice person.We were very efficient & proud to say neat as well!Yay!cHeeRs to boTh of Us!!
Guess Im preedy Ha-pee till now on the Pee-the-sEE.oK warping up my spelling for fun :) I just hope that friendships forged in PDC will remain la.My future is still a mystery..the ball is now in their court.I really wanna work to make Singapore a better place.

Quote of the DaY: "The human soul has still greater need of the ideal than of the real. It is by the real that we exist; it is by the ideal that we live." ~Victor Hugo

New discovery of the day: The left side of myself is darker than my right.Hmm..looks pretty interesting. Stared at myself in the mirror today and noticed that I'm more than a tad darker. Perhaps its nice to have a conplexion change after being fair for such a looong time.
Just returned home from some shopping at jurong point. Since it was some meet-the-parents session for PSC in the morning, I was clad in a kinda formal attirs.Black long sleeves,skirt and of course HEELS. Always thought that wearing heels was a form of saddism. When I reached home and took of my shoes, the all familiar blisters were there. Argh. Shall take a needle to burst those cursed blisters later. They're such an eyesore.
Oh wells, my parent didnt attend the MPS today as they werent free. But it was pretty fruitful today, talked to many seniors and once again, they were a batch with a variety of personalities, or so I perceive. Anyway, thanks to them, I gained a deeper insight of PSC work. One warned me against red tape and bureaucracy. I think its not hard to anticipate that, but its more like the obvious statement is a fact that more often than not gets taken for granted. Questioned myself a little. Those who know me well should see that I am not exactly a very rules person. Overly flexible at times, and of course sometimes I do pay a price. Bur I am more conscious of rules and frameworks set. For me such awareness grows with maturity.
Had a pretty interesting chat with one of the scholars. I asked him why he chose PSC over medicine.Well I could see his reason. Its somethiong like if u become a doctor, the number of pple u can help and save is only a teeny-weeny fraction of society. But as a civil servant, one can impact a whole population of the nation. Yeah. Its very true. I heard this advice more than enough times: It all boils down to what you want in life. Right now, I am still a lost sheep. I know I can't have my cake and eat it. I guess my heart will show an inclination and guide me as time passes by.
Haha on a side note, I am a very frugal shopper. Miserly, is a more straightforward and blunt way of saying it :) after walking for like 4 plus hrs with a shopping list, i managed to only get 2 pieces of clothings out of a shopping list of 10. Dear Xin Ling can vouch for my fussiness in shopping. Muahahahaha.
Once again, ran out of things to say. Or maybe Ive crapped more than enough. Till the nxt time I blog, adios.

Quote of the day: The willow knows what the storm does not: that the power to endure harm outlives the power to inflict it ~ Blood of the Martyr

I've never exactly kept a blog...i.e. it ususally dies after awhile. But now i'm here again, trying to make a blog, my blog, happen. Perhaps it's because ppl around me have been frenzily blogging and that has tempted me to start writing again. It's good i guess, to keep my grammar and spelling from going BAD. *smelly(rotten)*
ok another bout of lameness..haha dont think anything can cure me of that.I just enjoy being lame. -shrugs-
Anyway just came back from OBS,with a lot of muscle ache, dead epithelial cells, redness, memories and lessons learnt. Yes, all the PSC scholars are deserving people. Although most of us are very much different from one another, each and everyone of us brings something different to the table. They are all amazing people, nice to hang around with and nice to work with. Alas, even if I dont get my local-merit scholarship in the end, I will still not regret being part of this journey.
Perhaps its just idealistic altruism that made me want to take the local-merit scholarship. Apprehension is there of course. I really wonder how I can serve the nation whilst being a doctor-in-training. Puzzles me, but perhaps it may be possible with skillful juggling.The future lies ahead, unknown. But I wont lose faith. This philosophy of mine may sound really warped but here goes: I believe that life is a journey and people are like cars.If one loses faith before one starts the journey, its akin to puncturing ur tyres before u even start the engine. Then no matter how smooth the path is it'll still be a tough ride.But if one looks ahead without fear, the car'll be in good condition, so no matter how rough the terrain is, one will still be able to pull through.
Ok enough weiting's warped theory.
Well i'm really glad that i am in the PDC thingy. Its like as a Singaporean, I am able to look from inside the government out, to see how the society needs improvement and how to help the different stratas of society,understand their problems and maintain the integrity of our society.船到桥头自然直.I hope everything will work out.By blind faith,it will.
Yes yes climax is OBS.Now my watch has adopted the name 'Lucy' for me.Thanks to Jau aka Charlie Brown, who first coined the fact that I look like Lucy in Peanuts(Snoopy).Seriously speaking,i dont like the name.But in the spirit of good fun,i dont mind it.
OBS was GR8t.Really gotta thank all my watch mates for making the experience cool.I gues different watches have different experiences as it is made up of different people. I think personalities are like snow flakes. No two are superinposable or exact of the other. I enjoyed the spirit. I mean although at times when we lost, we always make ourselves feel as though we won. This sounds oxymornic but heck,thats the way it is.Learnt alot abt many ppl, and of course mua-self.[i'm a monitor evaluator in a team,and i suppose tt's very true] I've always believed in learning from everybody that crosses my path and my watchmates have written many chapters for my learning.Thanks dudes and dudettes!
Well I've always enjoyed OBS as it brings pple back to hard core basics,away from luxurious items and all.So all we have at the end are SeemingLy impossible challenges and of course our fellow watchmates.At this point of time, all the laughter, cheering, common experiences and lame jokes become important things of one's life.One learns to appreciate the essence and beauty of these things that we often take for granted.Guess this will serve as a constant reminder for me when I return to civilisation, like now.
My fingers too lazy to type the narration of the 3 days.Haha.Nvm..if u're interested u can ask me.If not that's all for now folks.Enough Reflection for the day.

Quote of the day: The pursuit of truth and beauty is a sphere of activity in which we are permitted to remain children all our lives ~Albert Einstein